In a single moment everything can change, you can go from lovers to friends, friends to enemies and down to the very low of strangers. Passing by each other with no emotion no smile no acknowledgement towards each other. Not even a thought will cross of who you were when you were together.
Five years ago I crossed paths with a boy who was still learning about him self. A boy who seemed misguided, self destructive, confused, stubborn, indecisive, and searching for his true self. This boy was the most intelligent and beautiful boy that had ever caught my attention. I was so intrigued, engulfed and mesmerized by his big brown eyes; which had me lost in feelings I didn’t even know existed.
Within our first and second conversation he had me lost in an ocean of curiosity. He drew me in like a fish, I was hungry for more, and thirsty to find out what was really behind the mask he wore. My feelings started to grow as each day passed, as each conversation started, as each time we met each other with a smile. His smile melted any past hurt I had experienced, his presence brought warmth into my life. I depended on seeing him each day to have a perfect ending. As the month came to and end I realized I had been falling in love with him. Keeping in mind our age difference of 6 years which to me played a huge role to my insecurities. What could I offer a 18 year old, and what kind of hurt was I setting my self up for? He was never going to stick around I was just a stepping stone, a single chapter in his book of life.
And If I could see him now; I would tell him that in those five years he became my heart, my soul and everything that made me happy. He is a part of my soul, something so deep I could never even explain. The words on this page could not capture even a sense of how he lived inside of me.
He was the light during my darkest days, and the very reason I always wanted to be a better person.
For him I would do anything.
We may loose hope, we may move on, we may love again, we may never see each other but my love for you is eternal, and there is this candle that will continue to burn hoping that one day you will see what I was trying to get you to understand. And maybe then you will find your way back to me. - Miss H
Five years ago I crossed paths with a boy who was still learning about him self. A boy who seemed misguided, self destructive, confused, stubborn, indecisive, and searching for his true self. This boy was the most intelligent and beautiful boy that had ever caught my attention. I was so intrigued, engulfed and mesmerized by his big brown eyes; which had me lost in feelings I didn’t even know existed.
Within our first and second conversation he had me lost in an ocean of curiosity. He drew me in like a fish, I was hungry for more, and thirsty to find out what was really behind the mask he wore. My feelings started to grow as each day passed, as each conversation started, as each time we met each other with a smile. His smile melted any past hurt I had experienced, his presence brought warmth into my life. I depended on seeing him each day to have a perfect ending. As the month came to and end I realized I had been falling in love with him. Keeping in mind our age difference of 6 years which to me played a huge role to my insecurities. What could I offer a 18 year old, and what kind of hurt was I setting my self up for? He was never going to stick around I was just a stepping stone, a single chapter in his book of life.
And If I could see him now; I would tell him that in those five years he became my heart, my soul and everything that made me happy. He is a part of my soul, something so deep I could never even explain. The words on this page could not capture even a sense of how he lived inside of me.
He was the light during my darkest days, and the very reason I always wanted to be a better person.
For him I would do anything.
We may loose hope, we may move on, we may love again, we may never see each other but my love for you is eternal, and there is this candle that will continue to burn hoping that one day you will see what I was trying to get you to understand. And maybe then you will find your way back to me. - Miss H